Cross of the Unknown

I plan, project, and predict.
I forecast, foretell, and foreshadow.
I calculate, conjecture, and contemplate.

Yet, carrying the cross of the unknown…

How will this plan, project or prediction evolve?
How will this forecast, foretelling and foreshadowing emerge?
How will this calculation, conjecture, and contemplation become real?

I don’t know!
What I know is that I carry the cross of the unknown.

The unknown cross is emotionally heavy,
mentally draining,
excruciatingly lonely.

Faith is my only strength.

Where is the unknown “place” of crucifixion?
Who will be there?
How will it happen?
How will I die on this cross?
Where is my unknown tomb?
How am I to face the darkness of the unknown tomb?
Will I rise from this tomb?

Faith is my only strength.

Unknown to me is the resurrection.
Can I carry the unknown cross and wait for the resurrection?

Can I 
plan, project, and predict,
forecast, foretell, and foreshadow,
calculate, conjecture, and contemplate,
while carrying the cross of the unknown?

“De more yu luk, de less yu si”

Translated: The more you look, the less you see.
Explanation: It is impossible to know everything. The more you find out, the less you know.